#114: "I'm 5 and a half years old!"

We went out for a meal this evening to celebrate Paul's birthday. Gifted in wrap, was a Megatron mask, accompanied by a talking megatron birthday card... A lot of entertainment was passed about the table.

My favourite Transformer was always Bumblebee. Although it was considered a disability to the other Transformers, it's tuning-in radio station voice box always made me have a soft spot for Bumblebee.

Boys are, and always will be boys. Like it or not. They never loose their inner Transformer, or Power Ranger. Just as Grandads never loose their love for their trainsets, and men, their love for cars. So why are we so reluctant to admit to our inner child, if we're all the same?

People feel as if they cannot be too enthusiastic towards something they feel passionate about. Otherwise, it is considered childish, or unprofessional. This saddens me.

One if the greatest things about children is that they have a great innocence. A child is completely oblivious as to what is wrong or right, what is socially acceptable, or what is considered "appropriate behaviour".

As we grow up, and grow old, most of us are conformed into becoming something that we are not, in order to feel socially excepted. To live by these rules is wrong. To be a geek, a child, or an enthusiast; to get excited over something that make us feel excited. It is indeed a very special thing.

I am one if the biggest children you will meet. I love Disney, I laugh and giggle like a little girl. I'll admit that I've been known to have tantrum, and I still sleep with 6 teddy bears on my bed... So fucking what?! I know when it's appropriate to act maturely, and I know when it's OK to let go of my inhibitions, and just be happy and content with who I am.

If you feel uneasy about letting go of what is expected of you, try doing something slightly scary or challenging, that is totally out of character for you. Then experience that indescribable feeling of what it is like to be out if your comfort zone. Enjoy it!

It's OK to find your innocence, and enjoy that fuzzy feeling you get from something childish. Keep that feeling close to you, and never let it go. It is special and it needs to be protected. If you hold onto it forever, it is the one thing that will set you free. You would have kept this one personality trait, from when you were young, and it will entitle you to true happiness.

Now excuse me whilst I slip of my heels, grab my fluffy booties, build a fort from couch cushions and blankets, and watch The Lion King!