Bussing it into Bristol, I got chatting to an old class mate, who I haven't seen in around 4-5 years. We spoke about having to sacrifice your dreams and ambitions, in order to start saving money to put towards those very dreams and ambitions.
Ironic, huh? And somewhere down the line, you just end up moving out, moving in with a partner, getting married, and starting a family, just like every other fucker... Not that that isn't a great thing, but shouldn't we only be doing that once we've pursued what we really want out of life? Where's the dreaming in just settling down when you're not ready to?
I'm glad to be working at Vision Express, and earning money in order to save up to go travelling, but is this really what I want to do as a career?
I was told today that an optical assistant was the last thing someone would expect me to be, when I left school... And they were right! I'm no good at science. I am far more creative than I am mathematical, and it's my dream to work in music. So why am I not pursuing that dream? Because I find it so hard to get into. There is nothing in Wells that can lead me into that field of work. The place closest to perusing that nature of work is in Bristol, which I need money and work for, to be able to live there. So fair enough. I'm saving up money to do that. But I just feel as if I am wasting my time, if I'm not planning on doing this forever.
As I filled in forms, studied diagrams, and wrote out notes into my paper as to what I should really be doing in my life, I felt like I came to a crossroads...
So, where now?
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